I don’t update tumblr that often, it sucks cuz I wish I was more motivated to do so from time to time. However, I am quite lazy and I know this but I’m just feeling such a surge of emotion right now I have to let it out.

I have 3 best friends (names changed for privacy) Derrick, Aud, and Shelly. We’ve all been best friends since gradeschool but now we’re all in college and living our own separate lives. Derrick lives in N.H, litterally, he moved out of his house and has his own apartment up there. Aud lives in Rhode Island and Shelly goes to school in Mass while I’m stuck here in CT. For the summer Aud and Shelly have come back home but Derrick still lives in N.H. I havnt seen or talked to him in a month and randomly, all 3 of them decided to visit me at work. I miss my friends so much and its been so long since we were all together. We even watched insidious together on his first night for a visit. Sure, the movie scared the crap out of us and I wish more than anything my bf Jake would come and cuddle me to sleep cuz I really need it <3

I love this boy more than I ever thought I could ever love anyone. He absolutely adores me….Which is a nice change from the lying backstabbing cheating boyfriends I’ve had in the past, one of my recent ones in particular. But Jake is nothing like that..he’s trustworthy, kind, and humble…and he loves me. He tells me everyday how beautiful and amazing I am which I cant help but smile at. I love the way he looks at me, the way he holds my hand, and the way he kisses me like I’m the only girl in his world…I am so helplessly in love with this kid but unfortunately…he lives an hour away from me…which sucks cuz I can only see him once a week or once every 2 weeks…the separation is so incredibly hard but part of me believes we can get through this and eventually move in together when we can be together all the time…I am so hoping for that…